I
was playing with my baby cousin when suddenly I saw Nasser *my 7 yrs old
cousin* holding a knife and his nanny was trying to take it away from his
hands, he came walking towards me with that knife, walla wakt’ha 7aseet nafsyy
ely bl aflaam!! La shu3orya’a I placed his baby brother beside me in the couch,
and screamed my lungs out!
“NASSSERRR
STOPPP ITTT!!!!!!!”
“JEEEAANAAAA
REMOVE TH KNIFE FROM HIS HANDSS PLEASEEEEE!!!!!”
*jeanaa
is the name of his nanny*
SUDDENLYYYY
!!!!!!!!!!!
Blood
was running down my arms..
Yeah,
he stabbed me, but thank god I had placed my hands in front of my face so that
the knife stabbed one of my arms. And it started to bleed ..
His
nanny went running to bring towel to stop the bleeding, while Nasser from his
shock he did the WORST choice ever. He went running down stairs, to “where all
my other family members, cousins, mom, grandparents, uncles ..etc” he told them
that “I” was chasing him with a knife!! T5ylaaw ga6 elm9eba foug rasyy :’)
But
guess what? … they all well not all, except his mom .. anyway, they didn’t
believe him, do you know why? Because they know that I had NEVER “mdeet eedy
3ala any living creature” .. so how come I’ll chase a young boy with a knife?
He
did all these things to me.. and do you want to know how I replayed to him?
Well,
I went to an empty room *from people* , then told his nanny to bring him
*Nasser* to this room without telling him I’m inside.. at first, his nanny and
my sisters thought that I’ll torture him, so they started begging me to let him
go.. but I ignored them.
My
cousin finally came, when he first entered the room, I went running toward him
and throw my arms around him, I hugged him so tight.. after few minutes I decided
to speak!
Me:
“7abebii Nasser, tadry shkthr a7bek? .. ana tara klshh mu za3lana lish 6al3t
blood mn my arms..bl 3ks ana za3lana lish ent met’9ayeg oo mu gam tl3eb weya
bajy el9byaan ..7abebii shnu feek? 3afya goulyy ymkn asa3dek, enta tghar mn
ukhok? …”
All
of a sudden, when I mentioned “ukhok” his tears came running down to his tomato
cheeks :’)
Finally,
he decided to unlock his heart to me.. he reveled to me everything he felt,
from jealousy to hatred to lonely .. etc
Yeah,
he’s jealous from his brother, because all the attention turned to his brother
and he? Was simply ignored .. aahh they forget that he is their SON TOO!! He
have feelings too ye7sss!
Tadroun,
gbel hl salfa kan lma yshofny ma yslem 3alay he simply ignore me. Even lma
khali ygol lh salem bl gha9eb yslem .. but after hl salfa everything changed !
Gbel
chm week I visited them, when he first saw me, he came running towards me,
jumped ib 7’9nyy, kissed me on both cheeks, and hugged me .. <3
Now?
He treats me very well, share with me his candy, let me play with him soccer. I
love him so much<3
I mentioned
in the previous chapter if you remember, many types of people, and I focused on
those who you love, but they keep on hurting you. Didn’t you ever STOP and
asked yourself these questions..
“why
is he\she keep torturing me day and night? “
“am
I the reason behind his bad actions?”
“why
did I choose this person from all the people in the universe?”
“does
he\she deserves my suffering for him\her?”
If
all your answerers supports that person, then you have to search for the
reasons behind his sadness and make him\her happy. But if most answerers
doesn’t support that person, then there’s something wrong, you don’t love that
person..you’re just an “mu3jeb” fatra oo t3dyy..
But
you have to keep in your mind NOT all people deserve your suffering for them.
Some people are “m9l7chyeen” be yest’3lounkum, BE AWARE!! To who you share your
secrets with, to have you will suffer for, to who you trust the most.
Keep
in mind, “a9ab3ch mu wa7ed”..
Here’s
an advice, if you really love that person and don’t want to lose him\her, then
try to help, do your best to draw the smile on his\her face.
Maybe
he’s suffering from something oo gam y6l3 7areta 3alich? .. as my cousin used
to do to me ..
START
searching for the reasons behind this sadness and turn them to happiness!! YOU
CAN DO IT!!
*repeat
after me*
I
CAN DO IT! NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME! I CAN I CAN YEESS I CAN.
^for
the sake of that person.
Finally,
always keep in mind that, if pain must come from a person you love, may it come
quickly, because I have a life to live, and I need to live it in the BEST way
possible. If he\she has to make a choice, may he\she make it now. Then I will
either wait for him\her or forget him\her.
“never
stop just because you feel defeated, the journey to the other side is
attractive only after great suffering” – santosh kalwan
p.s. i'm here if you need someone to listen to you, i won't let you down, i promise x
love youu all!
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