chapter 13

 

قال تعالى : (وقضى ربك الا تعبدوا الا اياه و بالوالدين احسانا اما يبلغن عندك الكبر احدهما او كلاهما فلا تقل لهما اف ولا تنهرهما و قل لهما قولا كريما )

 

Before letting my heart speak to you, I want you all to imagine this with me..

Imagine that you have just woke up from a nightmare, a really bad one, and your first thought is to go and check on your mom, to see if she’s okay, and let her hug you and calm you down, and to make sure that your nightmare had nothing to do with her.

So you knocked her door, but no response. You decided to open the door, but you didn’t find her inside!! Then you decided to go and search for her in all the house, but didn’t find her .. finally you called her on her mobile, and it was switched off.

SUDDENLY!!!

You saw every member of your family, except your mom, gathering in the living room, some of them tearing, others are in deep sadness, but all of them were looking to you with mercy …

Your dad came closer to you, holds your hands, and hugs you too tight, then tells you .. “yuba .. omch ra7t mukan wayed a7laa, ra7et 3end rab elbashr, omch tewft 9arlha sh’hreen oo enty kl youum 3ala hl 7alaa, kl youm nafs elqe9a … “

And then you start having flashback, to that nightmare which turned out to be REAL.

 

Our parents are the joy of our life, the light of our eyes. Allah commanded us to obey them and treat them well. Our parents worked hard for us. They do their best for us, and give us love and care, so don’t they deserve our respect for them?

Let me tell you a story I heard it and read it several times. Yeah it’s a TRUE story, I think you have heard of it, but I hope not yet ..

This story about a mom and her son, first, let me tell you more about his mom, she loves him so much ( mest3da it’97y ib ay shy 3ashan ra7t weladha) she works in his school, not a principle or a teacher, but a lady that serves food for the students in the cafeteria, and she had something that made her son always stay away from her, and treat her very bad, like he told her to NOT call him “my son” in front of other students 3ashan ma tfshlaa ..tboun t3rfoun lish he treats her in this way? Well, because she has just one eye, she lost her other eye in … umm maby akhreb 3alekum ra7 t3rfoun akhr elqe9a enshalla :p

Days passed, and that son is treating his mother much worse, no one of his friends knows that she’s his mother, every student use to make fun of her one eye ..

Until that day, when her son decided to get married, his mother was very happy for him, she thought that if he got married, he’ll treat his mother very well … but, as you know NOT all what we EXPECT from people turn out to be TRUE.

One day, she went to visit her son, because she didn’t see him for 7 years ( kan msafer weya mrta oo 3yalah y3esh bra) .. t5yalaw ma 7an 3aleh gulbh yrd yshouf omh  …. :’)

Anyway, she asked about him until she found where he lives, so she went to his apartment, knock the door, and 2 young children opened the door for her, awl ma shaft’hm 7aset enhm 3yal weldha, chan trou7 tlmhum la shu3oorya’aa <33 …  faja’a the children pushed her away, they started to scream, they were so SCARED of her one eye ..

All of a sudden, her son appeared in front of her, she went to place her arms around him, to hug him so tight to her chest, to let her feelings speak, to show him how much she missed a part of her, missed his smell, missed the word “Yuma”from his lips …… <\3

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GUESS WHAT WAS HIS REACTION ???!!!!

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To be continued ….

 

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chapter 12

HELLOO EVERYONEE!!

This chapter is SPEACIAL one, do you know why?

Because it’s dedicated to all my lovely READERS :*

In the previous chapters I made some readers tear, smile, and laugh. but in this chapter I decided to unlock my heart for you.. I just wish that the words I’ll say will touch your hearts…

First, i want all of you to know something, EVERYONE in this universe suffers from certain kind of issues, so please don’t think you’re suffering all alone by yourself .. and NEVER wish to die because your life sucks! I know that some ppl wish death, but come on, let face it? Are you READY to meet allah? .. I know that most of you are not.. so don’t wish death, and always think of Palestine, Syria and other countries who’re suffering much more than you! I’ll ask you few questions and I won’t you to answer with yes or no, okay?

Look around you,

Do you have a shelter?

Do you have something to eat?

Do you have something to wear?

Do have a family?

Do you have a bed?

If all your answers YES!! Then thank allah for this. Because other people have lost everything.

I once read a TRUE event happened to a young girl she lost her family and home in seconds !! her house was burn and her family died because of the burning fire, while this girl survived alone, allah ketb lha 3umer, but She lost her home and family. And a lot of other events I read in news paper, well I don’t read news paper, actually my mom told me, cause she’s the one reading ;p anyway, she told me about a car accident, both parents died and their baby son the only one survived :’) he lost his parents at very young age..

 

So, ALWAYS thank allah for what he gave you, I use to do something to make me feel better I’ll share it with you, actually, 2 things.

First, I use to bring a sheet of paper and divide it in to two parts, the first part I’ll write down all the “ne3m” that allah gave it to me, but the other part I write all the things that “en7rmt”mnhm .. and I found that what allah gave me is much more than what allah took from me. I won’t you all to try it,  100 % sure you’ll find same my results.

Second thing I do to make me feel better, when I get pissed off or depressed, I PRAY to god, just let your heart speak! Cause NO ONE in this world knows shkthr you’re suffering except allah sub7anah. Trust me you’ll feel much better after this.

Here’s another thing I want to talk about, you are ALL special, but each person on their own way! I know that some of you are good in arts stuff, while other in sports, some are talented in writing, and many other talents, you just have to search for that talent and improve it! The most important don’t listen to what others say about your talent, KEEEP MOVING FORWARD. Tadrouun lish? 7achyy ELNAS la ywady wla iyeebb. And people are just jealous from you ;)

Shofaw, most of the ppl ely naj7een ib 7ayat’hm ma hamhm 7achy elnas! They simply ignore it.

And yeah, I don’t want to see anyone sad, SMILE, because you have beautiful one that others are dying to see it. SMILE, because you have supportive friends and family, SMILE, because you are one of a kind, SMILE, because you are much better than others, SMILE, because I’m here for you, SMILE because i love you and I know that you love me back? :p

YUUUBAAA SMILEEEEEE :D :D :D

 

some of you thought I might leave blogging world right?... hmm well the truth is I CAN’T leave my sisters suffer and go LIVE my life! Well, yeah many girls asked me for a certain advice either through dm or ask or kik. But there are these girls who always keeps asking me for advice and I NEVER got bored from listening to them. And there’s the third type of girls I met they became so close to me, they’re so sweet, lovely, friendly than some people I met in real life .. they became my sisters<3 ..  so I can’t leave now, I might but not now. I’ll not post daily, I might post 2 or 3 chapters a week, sorry but I really can’t, I have other issues to deal with. But you can always find me through ask or dm.

I want to thank all of you, because YOU ARE the reason of letting me continue blogging <3

in the end, I want to say, well I wish the world will hear this from the deepest of my heart. I have the most amazing, supportive, friendly READERS ever <3 I love you all.

And remember, I’m always here for you, I won’t let you down x

 

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chapter 11

 heyy, i hope you enjoy reading this post. guyss can you plz provide me with your feedback? xx  cause it might be the last chapter, i might leave blogging world.. i'm not sure yet.

I was playing with my baby cousin when suddenly I saw Nasser *my 7 yrs old cousin* holding a knife and his nanny was trying to take it away from his hands, he came walking towards me with that knife, walla wakt’ha 7aseet nafsyy ely bl aflaam!! La shu3orya’a I placed his baby brother beside me in the couch, and screamed my lungs out!

“NASSSERRR STOPPP ITTT!!!!!!!”

“JEEEAANAAAA REMOVE TH KNIFE FROM HIS HANDSS PLEASEEEEE!!!!!”

*jeanaa is the name of his nanny*

SUDDENLYYYY !!!!!!!!!!!

Blood was running down my arms..

Yeah, he stabbed me, but thank god I had placed my hands in front of my face so that the knife stabbed one of my arms. And it started to bleed ..

His nanny went running to bring towel to stop the bleeding, while Nasser from his shock he did the WORST choice ever. He went running down stairs, to “where all my other family members, cousins, mom, grandparents, uncles ..etc” he told them that “I” was chasing him with a knife!! T5ylaaw ga6 elm9eba foug rasyy :’)

But guess what? … they all well not all, except his mom .. anyway, they didn’t believe him, do you know why? Because they know that I had NEVER “mdeet eedy 3ala any living creature” .. so how come I’ll chase a young boy with a knife?

He did all these things to me.. and do you want to know how I replayed to him?

Well, I went to an empty room *from people* , then told his nanny to bring him *Nasser* to this room without telling him I’m inside.. at first, his nanny and my sisters thought that I’ll torture him, so they started begging me to let him go.. but I ignored them.

My cousin finally came, when he first entered the room, I went running toward him and throw my arms around him, I hugged him so tight.. after few minutes I decided to speak!

Me: “7abebii Nasser, tadry shkthr a7bek? .. ana tara klshh mu za3lana lish 6al3t blood mn my arms..bl 3ks ana za3lana lish ent met’9ayeg oo mu gam tl3eb weya bajy el9byaan ..7abebii shnu feek? 3afya goulyy ymkn asa3dek, enta tghar mn ukhok? …”

All of a sudden, when I mentioned “ukhok” his tears came running down to his tomato cheeks :’)

Finally, he decided to unlock his heart to me.. he reveled to me everything he felt, from jealousy to hatred to lonely .. etc

Yeah, he’s jealous from his brother, because all the attention turned to his brother and he? Was simply ignored .. aahh they forget that he is their SON TOO!! He have feelings too ye7sss!

Tadroun, gbel hl salfa kan lma yshofny ma yslem 3alay he simply ignore me. Even lma khali ygol lh salem bl gha9eb yslem .. but after hl salfa everything changed !

Gbel chm week I visited them, when he first saw me, he came running towards me, jumped ib 7’9nyy, kissed me on both cheeks, and hugged me .. <3

Now? He treats me very well, share with me his candy, let me play with him soccer. I love him so much<3

I mentioned in the previous chapter if you remember, many types of people, and I focused on those who you love, but they keep on hurting you. Didn’t you ever STOP and asked yourself these questions..

“why is he\she keep torturing me day and night? “

“am I the reason behind his bad actions?”

“why did I choose this person from all the people in the universe?”

“does he\she deserves my suffering for him\her?”

If all your answerers supports that person, then you have to search for the reasons behind his sadness and make him\her happy. But if most answerers doesn’t support that person, then there’s something wrong, you don’t love that person..you’re just an “mu3jeb” fatra oo t3dyy..

But you have to keep in your mind NOT all people deserve your suffering for them. Some people are “m9l7chyeen” be yest’3lounkum, BE AWARE!! To who you share your secrets with, to have you will suffer for, to who you trust the most.

Keep in mind, “a9ab3ch mu wa7ed”..

Here’s an advice, if you really love that person and don’t want to lose him\her, then try to help, do your best to draw the smile on his\her face.

Maybe he’s suffering from something oo gam y6l3 7areta 3alich? .. as my cousin used to do to me ..

START searching for the reasons behind this sadness and turn them to happiness!! YOU CAN DO IT!!

*repeat after me*

I CAN DO IT! NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME! I CAN I CAN YEESS I CAN.

^for the sake of that person.

Finally, always keep in mind that, if pain must come from a person you love, may it come quickly, because I have a life to live, and I need to live it in the BEST way possible. If he\she has to make a choice, may he\she make it now. Then I will either wait for him\her or forget him\her.

 

“never stop just because you feel defeated, the journey to the other side is attractive only after great suffering”  – santosh kalwan

 

p.s. i'm here if you need someone to listen to you, i won't let you down, i promise x

love youu all!

 

chapter 10

This post is dedicated to my lovely reader @kuwait2words xx

 

اللهم طولك يا روح .. على حبيبي اللي ملاني جروح ..

يزعل يوم و يرضى يوم .. و يوم يريد عني يروح ..

هو اليغلط ولازم انا اترجاه .. اصل المشكلة اعشقه و اهواه ..

يجرحني و يتركني .. ايش قد اتعذب وياه ..

Ee wallah (اللهم طولك ياا روح ) …

There’re many different types of people in this universe, and through experience you’ll get to meet many of these types, also not ALL of them will have or find a space in your heart, in other words, some aren’t welcome to stay in your heart …

Also there are those type of people when you first meet them “ trta7oun lhm” .. you start to trust them a lot, and share your secrets with them, and try your best to make them happy, to draw the smile on their face,  because they’re the reason behind your PRETTY smile <3

Finally, there’re another type of people, who you love the most and try your best to keep your friendship\relationship going positively, although, they never fail to hurt you, and instead of “ making your day” they are actually “ ruining it” but you forgive them once , twice, and … just because your heart choose to suffer for their sake, to live in pain with them, and you are afraid that you would lose it, if you lost them.

 

Let me tell you my own experience with my 9 years old boy cousin.. our story started from that day, first you have to know few things about my cousin attitude, he’s so “de3laa” always fight with my other younger cousins, he always keep saying bad words to his nanny, and he doesn’t respect people older than him, except my grandma, do you know why? Because she always give him gifts, y3ni ma9l7aa =)) ..

Anyway, my story with him started before 2 years ago, when he was 7 years old, his mother “wledt” a lovely baby brother for him. since that day, all the attention was turned to him *baby*, and my 7 years old cousin was ignored…

At our weekly gathering on Friday , I had some art project so after lunch I went upstairs to have some peace away from”7annat” children, so I can enjoy my time drawing peacefully ..

After few minutes all my cousins came upstairs jumping, shouting oo sar ez3aaajj !! I gave up, I decided to complete my drawing beside the beach in our chalet, because we are going to chalet after this gathering <3

I held the new born baby, ukho the 7 years old cousin, oo knt al3beh, agoula “teyaa” oo chi stuff ;p

“teyaa”wela “teraa7”? fahmtouha? xp adry maleeqaa :(::  bs wait, wait abe a3ref hl kelma shnu t3ny::? I’m furious =)) laa jaad walla? جد ولا جده ؟ la khala9 sorry :$ kamlaw eggraaw =)) ‘’eggraw” wela “milkraw” la khala9 yuba toouubaa a3ln ense7abyy::: shaswy 7addy fa9laa mu neg6a. oo salamtkum:*

I hope ‘3yrt your mood shway? :p .. anyway, yala bk to my story, wein  kena? .. ee I was playing with my baby cousin when suddenly I saw Nasser *my 7 yrs old cousin* holding a knife and his nanny was trying to take it away from his hands, he came walking towards me with that knife, walla wakt’ha 7aseet nafsyy ely bl aflaam!! La shu3orya’a I placed his baby brother beside me in the couch, and screamed my lungs out!

“NASSSERRR STOPPP ITTT!!!!!!!”

“JEEEAANAAAA REMOVE TH KNIFE FROM HIS HANDSS PLEASEEEEE!!!!!”

*jeanaa is the name of his nanny*

SUDDENLYYYY !!!!!!!!!!!

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To be continued …

 

chapter 9

 

After the mall, they decided to hang out in the seaside. Then, They decided to have dinner in one of the restaurants beside the sea. In there, the three cousins were laughing in ALOUD voice, lulu wasn’t sharing her laugh with them, she just kept silent, waiting to end this trip, to wear her comfort clothes, to go back to her lovely home, and sleep peacefully in her bed. After a couple of minutes a group of guys came to their table, and dana went to hug one of them!! Saying to that guy “misss youuu baby;$” *kant mdl3a 9ot’ha* … while reem with her other cousin sat with the other guys chatting&laughing .. suddenly one guy noticed lulu, who was sitting shocked&shy he looked at her and said “ ma 3arftouna 3ala rfejtkum hathy elydeeda?” ….

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Lulu turned to STONE!! She couldn’t move or speak, she was totally in shock. Not only from their reaction with the boys, but from something else that stabbed her. The words that came from dana’s boyfriend mouth were as if she was stabbed by a knife.

Dana’s boyfriend told dana:  “danoo a7bich oo a3shegichh, enty el7ub elawl oo elakheer … “

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You might be wondering shaku lulu ib dana’s boyfriend right? .. I’ll tell you, this guy is LULU’S BOYFRIEND TOO!!!! :)  or should I call him a fake bf? Or a PLAYER suits him akthrr?

Allah ykouun ib 3ounchh oo y9ber gulbch ya lulu .. hathy 6a3na mn 63naat hl denyaa .. ma shefty shy jedaamch darb oo bt9adfeen anwa3 oo ashkaal mn elnaas ..ely sar lazem ykoun dars lch t3lmeen mnh, mu TWAGFEEN 7ayatch 3ashan hl 7aywanaat! Laa prove to them you’re a strong girl. you might have lost A LOT but remember, you ALWAYS have allah sub7anah.

Do you remember my introduction? The first part about suffering from a person you love, and stabs you without reason? Yeah these people were the three cousins and lulu boyfriend. She loved them more than loving herself, more than anything you can imagine ..

At first, lulu’s boyfriend didn’t recognize her, because of the makeup she wear and the dress.

Lulu left them with tears running on her checks, running on the streets searching for a hand to calm her, ear to listen to her, lips to tell her “I love you, I care about you, I’m always here for you, everything will be alright … “

Anyway, ely abe aw9lh lkm ena el7ayat ma twgef 3ala AY SHAKHE9. & NOTHING LASTS FOREVER.

My lovely readers, don’t give a person more than he\she deserves. And don’t get too much attached to a person. Remember you might lose this person in any day, even if you were sure that nothing will break it apart, so what about DEATH? .. sorry, but this is a FACT that most of us are ignoring it .. #lelasef

So, don’t love a person more than loving yourself and put limits between you and other people, so that you won’t suffer A LOT if they left you without saying goodbye.

And yeah I’m going to repeat this again, in every chapter I mentioned about the importance of friends. So you should pick your friends CAREFULLY.

Finally, remember, you have two choices, you can keep running and hiding and blaming the world for your problems, or you can stand up for yourself and decide to be somebody important.

“ The truth is, everyone is going to hurt you. You just got to find the ones worth suffering for. “   - Bob Marley.

 

هذاك اول اذا قلت بتخليني

تبين دمعتي بعيني ...

ما عاد اهتم مثل اول

انا قلبي ترى تحول ..

 

 

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chapter 8

 

ما ياخذني الا الموت الا المووت ...

 و غيره ما يفرقنا ...

معك العمر كله ...

 يا عسى يومي قبل يومك ...

وعد ما اغيب عن عينك ما اغيب ...

 وعد ما ارخص محبتنا ...

حبيبي ساعة الفرقا ابيها اخر همومك ...

 

We all wish that our life would end happily ever after  with the ones we love, but I’m afraid this just happen in a FAIRY TALES! And we are living in the REAL world.

We have ALL suffered from certain issues in our life. But what if we keep on suffering from a certain person? And that person torture us day and night .. we forgive him\her because our love to that person is more than our love to ourselves. Suddenly that person stabs us not by a knife, but by words that will torture us for the rest of our life ..

Let me tell you a story of a girl who lost everything just because she gave her heart to the wrong people to play with it. (TRUE STORY)

Lulu is a very KIND girl, believe it or not, her kindness is somehow a weakness in her, because people used to “yest’3loun” this feature in her. You know what they call kind people these days “9aida” ? .. for me, I see kindness as “ne3ma” mn allah sub7anah, and we should thank allah for it. And anyone who call them “9aida” they lack this kindness, so they are either jealous? Or looking for attention.

Anyway, back to lulu’s story, so she’s a kind, lovely, friendly person. Lulu entered a club, there she  met 3 girls. She loved their style, the way they choose their clothes and matches them together. She added them in bbm, and started to have daily chats with them. So one day they decided to invite her to their baby cousin birthday party. I forget to mention that these 3 girls are cousins. Anyway, she went there and had fun with them. After the party, dana ( one of the cousins) suggested to go to starbucks. After (7anna) from the 3 cousins, lulu agreed to go with them, although lulu’s mother doesn’t allows her to go to these places late at night, but she went without her mom knowing about it.

The next day, they decided to meet each other in dana’s house. Lulu was the last to attend. When she came in, she found them applying some makeup .. they told her that they are going to hang out, but lulu first told them that her mom doesn’t allows her to hang out with friends always. But they convinced her to go with them by telling her it’s just once in life, and your mom won’t know about it .. etc

 Before leaving dana’s home, reem ( one of the girls) told lulu to change her outfit, and that no way she would hang out with them wearing this. So dana gave her a short black dress that she can wear for tonight.

All the way to the mall, lulu felt terrible, she can’t relax in that short dress, even when she entered the mall she saw guys won’t stop gazing at her, and some kept throwing bad/nice words to them ..

 
 

To be continued … 

 

 

chapter 7

After 7 years, laila is working in a company, one day she was late

 to work, when she suddenly saw police officers searching her

 office, she was too pissed off!! Because they blamed her of

 stealing “CD” that contains important information about this

 company.

Anyway, she told them that she didn’t know anything about that

 CD … but while they were searching, they found the CD inside

 her desk drawers!! They didn’t bother to listen to her excuses, so

 she got kicked off from the company “enfa9lat”.

She went back home crying, and repeating these sentences

 “ظلمووني "  oo "الدنيا دواره"    la7’9a la7’9aaa … el denya dwarah

 3aleehm bs mu 3aleech ?

She was so depressed, so she decided to take a nap.

She dreamed about …  guess who?

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ELKHADAMA. Tathkrounha? Ely ethmet’ha enha ely bayga flous

 mn omha ..

Anyway, hl khadama kant tgoul lha bl 7elm  

"ها ذقتي مرارة الظلم  bs 3ad madry etha galt’ha bl 3arbi wela hindi

=)) la yuba atghshmer weyakum bs 7abeet al6ef eljaw shwyy :P

Anyway, ee hathy el denya salf oo dain, ya 7abaybee etha

 en’9lmtaw la t7atoun 7a8kum mahoo ‘9aye3 ;) … bs aaakkhh

etha kentaw entaw el sebb fe ‘9elm ensaan? Amaanaa shloun

 gedrtaw tnamoun el lail aw tkmloun 7ayatkum oo entaw

 nesetaw ena   (الدنيا دواره) و (الدنيا سلف و ديين)?

6albtkum ya bashrr?

Abekum gbel la t76oun raskum oo tnamoun, TKFAA ge3daw

 tefakraw m3a nafskum …

Fe mra ‘9elmtaw ensaan?

Aw jer7taw shkhe9?

Etha EEHH. 3yal SHNA6REEN? Goumaaaw fezaaw te9al7aw weya

 hl shkhe9, gbel lat7oushkum 7oubtaa!

Finally, always keep in mind   (الدنيا دواره)

 

عرفت قيمتي اللحين عرفت الدنيا دواره ...

انا عندي لك كلمة روحي وامشي يا غدارة ...

 

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